keep me in your favorites

I’m up again, though I have somewhere to be tomorrow
There’s cold tea on the table, and my charger’s barely hanging on
You sent me “good night” — I replied “you too”
But I wanted to write so much more

I’m deleting the message for the fourth time now
Too sad — delete it; too sweet — that’s scary too
You probably put your phone down ages ago
And every sound feels like it’s you texting me

The room is dark, just the screen lighting half my face
For some reason, I’m opening your photos from a year ago
I don’t like that I like you so much
That any text from you ruins my plans for the whole evening

I could tell you everything
But my voice shakes even in a text
If you become a stranger tomorrow —
Can I at least stay close to you today?

Keep me in your favorites
At least I’ll be close to you there
Don’t delete my nonsense
I’m embarrassed enough about it already

Keep me in your favorites
Between the songs and photographs
If you don’t need me —
Keep me in your favorites

I remember which coffee you get near your place
That you can’t stand summer but love warm rain
You laugh when you’re scared and go quiet when you’re hurt
Why do I know all this if we’re “just friends”?

I’ve had your hoodie for two weeks now
I could give it back, but I keep forgetting
It smells of laundry detergent and a little bit of you
This sounds so stupid —

I know

I see your favorite gum in the store
I grab two without thinking and only notice when I get home
And somehow these little things hurt more
Than when you disappear for two days without explaining

I could tell you everything
But my voice shakes even in a text
If you become a stranger tomorrow —
Can I at least stay close to you today?

Keep me in your favorites
At least I’ll be close to you there
Don’t delete my nonsense
I’m embarrassed enough about it already

Keep me in your favorites
Between the songs and photographs
If you don’t need me —
Keep me in your favorites